Whoa.

Well, I asked for it, meditated on it, and Universe gave it. I got the call from my agent just this afternoon saying that, if I want ’em, they’re *all* mine. I wanted. I accepted with thanks.

Then proceeded to laugh hysterically.

Oh, me oh my. Tomorrow is going to be one hell of a workout.

4:15 – 5:15 Stilting gig.
then get ready for

5:30 – 6:30 Fire show.
break

7:00 – 8:00 Fire show.

All of these – solo.
Two.
Hours.
Of.
Fire.

I’m not going to even *try* to figure out a routine for the fire shows. Just going to let it flow as well as I can.
And break out the fire clubs – for the first time.

“Only by taking risks can we hope to accomplish the extroardinary.”

Gently

Take my hand, and dance with me
We’ll flow through the secrets
of yesterday
and realize
the dreams of tomorrow,
finding ourselves in the beauty
of now –
as we dance with no limits
with endless possibilities
as we dance
as we dance
to the song
of today.

(Paper scratchings from last night.)

I just got back from visiting Bean – she looks fantastic – as happy as she always was, playful – I think more energetic.
We got to play in the Ocean this time, it was an absolutely beautiful day – warm, sunny…
somewhere along the line, she’s learned how to swim!

It was so wonderful to see her again…

There’s a strange sense of sadness
as I watch someone I used to work with at the restaurant
ride by on his bike
uniform draped over his arm
on his way to another day
of the daily grind…
And I wish more people could be like Tana
the dessert girl at the restaurant
quiet, shy, soft spoken
but who emailed me just a couple days ago,
wanting to meet, ask questions
saying that she couldn’t stop thinking about
becoming a statue
performing in the street
and finally
doing what she wants to do
for her.

On a qoute trip.

Inspired by a project – and Henry Miller.

“Life moves on, whether we act as cowards or heroes. Life has no other discipline to impose, if we would but realize it, than to accept life unquestioningly. Everything we shut our eyes to, everything we run away from, everything we deny, denigrate or despise, serves to defeat us in the end. What seems nasty, painful, evil, can become a source of beauty, joy, and strength, if faced with an open mind. Every moment is a golden one for him who has the vision to recognize it as such.”

Henry Miller

“Whatever needs to be maintained through force is doomed”

“One of the reasons why so few of us ever act, instead of react, is because we are continually stifling our deepest impulses.”

Henry Miller

“The tragedy of it is that nobody sees the look of desperation on my face. Thousands and thousands of us, and we’re passing one another without a look of recognition.”

Henry Miller

…and something that digs deeper than most…

“Run your fingers through my soul. For once, just once, feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceive as I perceive, look, experience, examine, and for once;
just once,
understand.”
Author unknown.

But I don’t need you to believe what I believe. I would never want you to feel what I feel at times. I don’t want your heart to go
where mine’s been.
I just want you to understand.
That’s all.
And that
that
is everything.

Ecstacy

Shortly after the show started, the rain began to fall.

I was spinning my staff at the time, and as the rain fell, I got down on my knees in the grass, leaned back as far as I could, and turned my face up to the sky, spinning the staff above me.

The flames spinning around my head, the rain coming down onto my face, thunder, lightning…
For a few brief moments I lost myself, just swimming in the pureness and magick of it all.
For a few brief moments, nothing else mattered…