I don’t remember when – only who. Incomplete.
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Lifetimes ago, I called to you, called, and finally
you looked, noticed how my wings glistened with light
and reached to take hold of my hand.
You were blind to how these wings were scarred, wounded, broken,
or you just didn’t care. Not at the time. You saw something that you thought you could fix.
You reached down, down far – and almost fell
almost fell – for me. Some things I just won’t let happen. See where the scars come from, see why I use what I do for paste now, and don’t judge.
Out of bourbon and fire, fire and ashes, ashes and dust, dust like thousands of words and the tears of joy and sorrow that created them, out of these things I make my paste. I make my paste out of the same wind that carries them away. I make my paste out of the strength of the blood of my heart, of mine, not yours. You want me to be my best, my best for you. I want to be my best for me and only that because that is what stays. I know me better, I know what I want I know who I am and who I will be and that is not your creation. Even in your love, it can only be made by mine of myself. Only I can make me, again, and again, and again – and I do. You haven’t known me long enough to realize this. Let me be and love me and let me always become. Try to mold me and I crumble in your hands. Love me and let me be if you’re strong enough. If you’re strong enough, I will be stronger for us.
… … … (incomplete/complete)
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