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Don’t expect this to say much. Don’t expect any revelations, wisdom, or the cleverness in my words that I once had. I’m just doing this because I feel like writing – or perhaps more accurately, I don’t feel like not writing.
It’s been eating away at me for the past few weeks, or past few months, while sitting at my desk working or walking with my dog or laying in bed or doing anything at all, scraping at the door of my mind, all the words that I haven’t written. The thing is that it’s been so long that I can’t see what they want to say anymore – it’s as if a thousand books were caught in a tornado, words torn from the pages torn from their spines and left in a pile that makes no sense at all – has no beginning, has no end, but has a screaming insistence to try to be understood. To be put back in order, and once again find a place to rest on the page, to be heard, to escape the cage of my mind and go running, tripping over themselves as they scream in their madness & joy from being released after being locked up for so long.

So now I sit in bed after just waking up, and try to get something out – some sort of beginning, put some meaning to the maelstrom and maybe, just maybe, feel a little better. Feel like I may have done something, said something – or at least broken the rusty and forgotten lock on the cage the words were confined in, letting them soon realize that they are free again, that I woefully missed them, and that I’ll never be able to apologize enough for caring what other people read over what they needed to say.

You’re free. Please understand that I need you just as you were, without fear of pissing people off or alienating others, the same words that made some fall in love with me, and others feel less alone. The words that hated and healed. The words that made me feel less alone.

Come back. It’s time. And… I think I’m ready. I think I have been for a long, painful time.

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It’s happening!

(Please read this. Not only could you win a $320 Gift Certificate to Flux Maille & MetalWear – but you could also very easily help the homeless in my neighborhood with warm clothes & dog food for their dogs – even if you’re in a different country! (They’ll still really appreciate it! 😉 )

First off, I’m still ALIVE! But that isn’t what this email is about.
It’s about finally deciding to live.

With all that’s going on with Flux Maille & MetalWear, the post got a little long – so here’s a rundown of a little of what’s going down:

• I’ve been invited to show (& sell) my work at an event called RAW: Envision that could get my art National – and even International – Attention!
• I need to sell a minimum of 20 tickets (to help cover their costs) to have a booth.
• For every ticket sold after my personal minimum of 50 tickets is met, the buyer will be entered to WIN A $320 GIFT CERTIFICATE for Flux Maille & MetalWear!!!
• You CAN buy as many tickets (entries to the raffle) that you wish. NO LIMIT.
• You do NOT need to attend to win – or even live in the same country!
• At 200 tickets sold, I will add another chance to win! (Two Winning Tickets)
• At 300 tickets sold, I will add a THIRD chance to win! 
• There is NO limit to amount of tickets (entries to the raffle) you can purchase.
• Does NOT include shipping.
• I will also be introducing a brand new BEAUTIFUL collection for the new year at RAW!
• The event will be held at (venue name & address) 1015 Folsom, San Francisco, CA on Wednesday, January 10th, 2017 from 7:00PM-11:00PM. The event is 21+ and it’s going to be INSANE! (The requested dress code is cocktail attire. I request going ALL OUT wit yo bad self!)

And now, with the details!

Magnificent things are happening with Flux Maille & MetalWear & myself. Seems these days as if every corner I turn, there is even more amazing news to share with you!
For the sake of keeping things as short as possible however, I’ll only tell you one of those things in this email, and a quick story of how I got there. Because the story is kind of cool, and I think may be even a little inspirational. (Write back & let me know!)

Ya see, shortly after I turned 50 a few months ago I was sitting on my bed, doing my morning coffee/reading/meditation thing & trying to psyche myself up for another day of doing battle with the horrible Facebook algorithms trying to promote my work, when it hit me: (spoiler alert!) being a perpetually broke dreamer, artist, and hat addict just isn’t as romantic as it’s portrayed to be in the movies. Not even close. So, as usual, having no idea how I was going to actually do it, I decided to change. I didn’t want to be broke anymore.

Ever.

This time, however, I’m doing it differently. Tearing myself down to the foundation, and building myself back up again – doing things & thinking things I’ve never done before – even, and especially, if they terrify me.
Beginning with this.

(I won’t get into how I changed/am changing here, but if you want to read about it, I’m going to start regularly updating my blog again, so it will be here within a few days.)

Those who have known me for a while know that, usually, once I decide to change myself or life, from deciding to chase my dreams, to deciding to create a magazine, to, y’know, not dying – I do it – whatever it takes. And almost invariably, if I’m on the right path, the Universe steps in to offer a hand.
Once I made the decision to re-create my life this time, small things started happening to guide me, and it’s no different this time. One of those things was – and I forgot how it happened – but found myself in a conversation with a young woman who just happened to own her own thriving clothing business, and asked her some questions on how to get my little ol’ Dog & Pop business up to the next level – or five (on a scale of 1-10, where 10 is, y’know – Total World Domination.)
One of the things she mentioned was to check out this thing called RAW – so I looked it up online – and when the needle on my bullshit meter didn’t move towards the red at all, I eagerly submitted my work to them. I saw there was an event coming up somewhat soon, and time was short…

A few weeks later, after the modern-day equivalent of sitting by the phone, wondering if they would ever call, I finally received an email from one of their representatives saying they “loved what they saw”, congratulating me on being selected as one of their new up-and-coming artists, and inviting me to show my work at their next “Highly Anticipated Artist Showcase” called “ENVISION”!
I KNOW! Pretty friggin’ awesome, riiight?!!

But dig it – I need your help. I need you to buy tickets, and in return, you could WIN a piece of my very highly praised chainmaille jewelry – a $320 value!

Here’s the deal: I NEED to sell 20 tickets to this amazing event to help cover all of their costs. After those, I get $10 for each additional ticket sold – and when you buy them through me, they’re only $22! (They’re $30 at the door.)  (The link to buy them is below.)

After my personal minimum goal of 50 tickets sold is met, everyone who buys (or has bought) a ticket will be entered into a drawing for any piece of my jewelry they choose – up to a $320 value – for EVERY TICKET PURCHASED! You don’t even have to attend – or live in the same country! The more tickets you buy, the more chances you have to win – and there is NO limit! (For those not able to attend or who buy extra tickets, those tickets will be used as my “guest list”, so my really broke friends can come & be a part of this amazing evening as well.)
At 200 tickets sold, I will add another chance to win.
At 300 tickets sold, I will add a THIRD chance to win!

You can purchase tickets here! http://www.rawartists.org/fluxmaille

Why am I doing the raffle? Because while I know I could easily sell 20 tickets,
I WANT to sell 300.
Here’s the deal:
After I sell the initial 20, for every single ticket sold after that – I get $10! The amount of good I could do for my business, others, and myself is breathtaking!
I frequently take a few bags of dog food down to where they hang out & give it away to the ones with dogs, but with this, I could do so much more for them! From buying warm, clean socks for the homeless in my neighborhood & food for their dogs to food for them – I’ll be able to truly help, especially in these cold months –  and with how it can also help my business, that is why I hope to reach close to 300 tickets sold – because that would be an extra $2800 – a HUGE help for others & myself.
And YOU can help me reach it.

ALL tickets need to be purchased by January 5^th, so please get your tickets now! You can easily get them on my RAW artist profile, here:
http://www.rawartists.org/fluxmaille

In addition to supporting me and my work (& skyrocketing business), you will also be able to see a lot of other amazing  local artists and vendors, including live dance performances, live bands, our in house DJ, live hair and makeup pedestal models, and an amazing runway fashion show featuring local fashion designers!  This event is going to be HUGE, with tons of entertainment – and also great for shopping!

The event will be held at (venue name & address) 1015 Folsom, San Francisco, CA on Wednesday, January 10th, 2017 from 7:00PM-11:00PM. The event is 21+ and it’s going to be INSANE! (The requested dress code is cocktail attire. I request going ALL OUT wit yo bad self!)
PLEASE HELP SUPPORT MY ART & BUSINESS! Not only can this event help me network with other great local artists and expose me to 1000+ attendees, it can help me expand nationally as well!

Here’s how it will help:

• First, there is the chance to network and make new amazing connections with the community of artists they work with and permanent portfolio placement on their site!
• I will have professional artist head shots done and receive professional pictures of my work.
• I will have an opportunity to showcase again outside of San Francisco at any other RAW location of my choice in a new market!
• I will also be automatically eligible to join the newest branch of their company called FOUND: Agency, which is a creative agency where they actually link up their artists with clients for work, campaigns, paid gigs, and similar opportunities!

Git Yer Tickets straight from my RAW artist profile, right here:

http://www.rawartists.org/fluxmaille

This is HUGE for me, and I am SO incredibly grateful for your support.
THANK YOU!

Please feel free to forward & share this email with all your friends, family, and anywhere, to anybody, you feel could be even a tiny bit interested – if they buy a ticket, they’re entered in the drawing as well!

And stay tuned! There will be more news regarding this – and other amazing things coming soon… and also, I want to thank you, especially, for being a part of my email list.
It’s a big deal for me that you’re on here, and I want to let you know – you’re appreciated. I’ll do my best to keep it interesting, inspiring, and maybe, every now and then – enlightening. You deserve it. 😉

With love, immense gratitude, and true, genuine *LIVING* (instead of just “alive-ing”)

~ kSea flux

 

P.S. Please feel free to respond with comments, questions, good advice, any knowledge of a business coach or mentor I should look into (seriously) and I’ll get to each one personally ASAP. Thanks!